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Latest messages angels gave to my terminally-ill patients:

1. Enlightenment:

“Of course God has a place for all of us. Remember, His House has many rooms and finding enlightenment before one dies allows God to manifest Himself within us and within our daily life. Essentially, we do not have to wait to die to pay our dues and go to heaven. We can enter heaven while on earth.”
This was one of the messages Grace was given by the angels. This was so appropriate for this 102 y.o. lady, as she had felt God had abandoned her to live on earth for eternity.

2. The Ego and Self-Forgiveness:

“It is by forgiving oneself and then others, that we are forgiven…” Marlese, a 12 y.o. girl, who died from muscle cancer. She expanded on what the angels explained about self-forgiveness. The angels and her deceased father explained that to forgive yourself does not necessarily mean that you should forget what you did or said that is making you feel guilty. Most people feel more guilty about sinful thoughts as opposed to comments or actions that hurt others. Either way, these continued actions, without finding daily self-forgiveness, pile up, if you will, in our mind and subconscious to a point where the actions are replaced with an attitude that projects hateful, condemning and judgmental expressions on others. The ego does this as it never wants to blame itself. It feels that self-condemnation will destroy itself, and it cannot allow that. What the unintelligent and selfish ego does not understand is that the act of self-forgiveness empowers the person within and is not self-defeating. So to forgive oneself, one must find the person within that is above the ego. The person that knows the difference between right and wrong, This person is the higher being that is connected to the Source of our being; God.
Therefore, by taking time out to pray or meditate with total truth with the accompanied deep desire to understand that this life is a series of unending lessons, some difficult and others joyful, one can then begin to evolve. This metamorphosis that all humans are experiencing is fueled by self-forgiveness and the realization that our Creator loves us just the way we are. Without forgiving oneself, our final change from a caterpillar to a beautiful monarch will be halted, slowed or possibly mutated. Not forgiving oneself forces one to hold on to guilt and pain and demand the impossible; that you become someone other than yourself. That is to say the ego wants to be able to control a person that has not achieved understanding and enlightenment from ones faults and shortcomings. This is due to the gift of free will.
The good news is that God will never abandon us. Remember Dr. Lerma, nothing is impossible with our Creator. Just remember that to forgive yourself means you understand that you might have acted or thought differently if you had known how. Forgiving yourself means you finally recognize that you did not know how to accomplish something in different manner and realize you have learned from your mistake(s). To forgive yourself means you are finally willing to accept yourself just as you were at the time you made the error in judgment that you have been holding over your head. Merlese left me with these final words from what she learned from the four angels assigned to her:

“ To entertain dishonesty, what is not good or not helpful from others or oneself, only feeds our ego. This act in turn and unwisely crafts a form of guilt within our soul, which forces one to veer from the one thing that will destroy it; that is our free-will to self-forgive and self-love.
The constant lies that our self-centered ego tells our spirit or soul is purely for its self–preservation. It has no consideration for bringing us joy, love and forgiveness. The ego, also known as our sinful nature, stems back to the story of Adam and Eve. It was their ego, the same ego that exists in us, which lead their spirit to defy God’s request. It is the spirit that is the connection to our Creators spirit and houses our free will, intelligence, foresight, and understanding of right and wrong. Ultimately, the ego does serve its purpose early in life by fighting for survival. As a child, its self-centeredness serves to bring attention to our parents to feed us, cuddle us, play with us. It’s all about “me”.
As we get older and begin to develop our identity, our conscious or higher self, begins to acknowledge its existence and begins to retreat from the egos control. This period of time is crucial to developing independence, spirituality, self-love and the understanding of self-forgiveness. If ones early life is full of distress, anxiety and abuse, the ego strengthens and forms a false identity out of a primordial need to survive. It is then quite difficult to form the identification with our higher self, thus leading to a dysfunctional life full of anger, self-hatred and duplicitous behavior. This in turn polarizes our ego and higher self, leading to a battle of what some would consider, good versus evil. This inescapable darkness is why God sent His only Son to suffer and die. God saw the only way out of this quandary was to show us the way. The way was through acknowledging that there was a God who loved us and through faith, He would give us strength to say no to our ego, self-forgive, self-love and ultimately accept our heavenly inheritance.”